Babaiii

Babaii lefteye. Saya sudah tak mahu menulis dalam blog ni. Sebab banyak kisah duka saje dalam blog ni. Adakah bermakna saya tak mahu menulis lagi?? Bukan macam tu. Saya dah create blog yang baru. Mahu tinggalkan blog yang lama ini untuk suatu blog yang lebih baik (harap2). :)

Oh, gile skema penutup blog ni. Hehehe. Jadi kalau ada yang membaca blog ni, jom jumpa di blog baru saya - http://mylifeinthemodestlane.blogspot.com

Tapi belum berisi apa2 story lagi. Will update soon!! Babai lefteye!!!

Dalam Dilema

Oh, ni bukan tajuk lagu kumpulan KRU. Walaupun masa zaman sekolah adalah kipas susah mati grup nii, tapi sejak meningkat dewasa minat tu makin pudar. Rasa cam dah tak best nak layan rap2 ni. Sekarang ni lagi la dah amik tau hal2 muzik kat Mesia ni. Sape artis baru pun tak kenal. Kalau tengok show Muzik-muzik tu memang haram nak kenal artis baru. Huhuhu. Eh, dah melalut. Bukan nak story pasal muzik sebenarnya. Tapi aku memang dalam dilema skarang ni.

Ceritanya gini. Dulu masa aku lepas pantang Humaira adalah dijaga oleh mak mertua aku. Lebih kurang dalam sebulan coz dalam waktu tu aku tengah renovate rumah. So takkan nak biar si kecik comel aku tu dok kat umah kan?? Dengan habuk segala. Tu yang bagi dowang jaga. Anyway, Humaira adalah baby yang kecik aje. Masa lahir dulu berat dua just 2.8kg je. Tapi bayangkan dalam masa sebulan mak mertua aku jaga dia leh naik sampai 4kg!! Memang nampak tembam je si kecik aku tu, sampai leher pun tak nampak.

Ok, lepas umah dah siap reno segala, kitorang pun bawak la balik Humaira ke rumah. Kat sini, kitorang hantar kat baby sitter kat sebelah umah. Bila gi inject Humaira untuk 2 bulan, berat dia naik 0.4kg je = 4.4kg je jadi berat dia. Takpe la, buat diam lagi. Tapi baru ni pegi inject untuk 3 bulan plak, berat Humaira still naik ciput aje. Aku macam apekahhh?? Dia tak kasi anak aku minum susu ke?? Sebab susu pun aku tengok yang letak kat umah dia lambat je habis sedangkan susu kat umah aku dah berganti and dah tinggal separuh even though bagi wktu malam on weekdays and whole day during weekend. Tak ke pelik??

Then, hubby aku lak gi story kat parents dia hal si Humaira ni. Udah ler dowang macam tak puas hati. Then terus offer nak amik Humaira untuk dowang jaga. Aduhhhh!! Tu yang aku dalam dilema tu. Bukan aku tak yakiin ngan dowang ke hape. Tapi dowang tu jauhhh. Kat Taiping nunn! Takkan la nak balik tetiap minggu nak tengok Humaira, banyak la duit aku. So, paling-paling pun once a month. Once a month?? Mana cukup nak tengok anak kesayangan aku tu. Tap kalau terus tinggal kat sini aku tak tau nak hanta kat sape lagi. Takkan nak hanta kat taska lak?? Lagi la a big no-no!!

Tu yang dalam dilema nih. Nak bagi dowang jaga, kang aku rindu. Mau tetiap malam aku nanges. Tapi pro-nya, anak aku akan terjamin dari seg makan pakainya. Lagipun bukan nak tinggal terus. At least paling lewat pun sampai umo setahun. Paling awal umur nam bulan.

Kalau terus tinggal kat sni ngan aku, kesian dia tak bape terjaga. Tengok dari gaya babysitter aku ni macam tak bape jaga je. Memang la dekat dengan aku, tapi aku juz leh pay attention pada dia on weekends je. Weekdays?? 5 hari vs 2 hari. Harus la aku kalah.

Humaira sayang, nak duduk dengan opah ke?? Nanti ibu rindu. Abang Haikal pun suka main dengan adik. Oh, macam ni pun air mata dah bergenang. Macam mana ni??

Meninggal kat bilik

This is sooo last week. Kan aku cuti lama sebab kenduri hari tu. Naik je ofis balik hari khamis sudah ada story. Time aku cuti hari tu ada orang mennggal kat dalam bilik ketua pentadbiran aku.

Ok, storynye cenggini. Kan hari tu aku de gtau yang kitorang baru pndah ofis kan?? By the way, ofis baru kitorang ni adalah agak mencabar perjalanan nak ke ofis. Ofis kitorang kat tingkat 1, tapi xde lif sume. Kalau dari parking depan, nak naik ofis kitorang kene menempuh banyak anak tangga+jalan dia pin adalah mendaki bukit. So, pada sape2 yang stok semput tu, memang agak mengah gak nak sampai ke atas building ofis ni.

Tu baru nak sampai building. Nak sampai ke ofis kene panjat tangga lagi. Hih, hazab. Memang tade manja2 la kat ofis baru ni. Huhuhu. Ok, kira yang datang hari tu adalah kontraktor yang nak discuss projek toilet kat ofis. Ade la nak reno sket. Dan diberitahu rupenye kontraktor ni ada masalah jantung. Tapi masa dia datang ofis tu tade sape pn tau dia ada penyakit.

Bila dia dah sampai atas, dowang kata dia terus gi round toilet, tade la nak duduk2 dulu. Dah habes round baru la masuk bilik ketua aku for further discussion. Tapi baru je nak diskusi sekali kontraktor ni sudah terjelepuk pengsan atas kerusi. Memula ingat pengsan biasa, tapi tengok udah lain macam KP aku soh s/u dia kol ambulance. Sekali ambulance plak salah tempat sebab ingat ofis ktorang still di building pentadbiran. Hampehhh. Nampak sangat la tak baca buletin. Huhu.

Bila ambulance sampai terus bawak g hospital serdang rasanya, dan pegawai perubatab sahkan dia dah meninggal. Bila aku tanya s/u KP aku tu, dia kata masa kat bilik tu ada orang yang cuba tutup mata jenazah tapi takleh. Seolah--olah arwah tu mati terkejut. Hoh, takut. Tu la kan Allah nak tunjuk. Bila2 je dia leh tarik nyawa. Lepas peristiwa tu KP aku baca yasin and baca al-quran dalam bilik dia. Mungkin dia pun cuak ke apa.

Eh, humaira dah bangun. Ok la, nti story lagi. Daaa.

Macam-macam ada

Hoh, lama dah tak update blog. Sekarang adalah sibuk sejak humaira dh lahir ni. Biasa la bila dh ada baby, keje makin banyak. Nak siapkan susu dia la, layan berak kencing dia, mandi dia. Agak letih coz haikal dh besar, so dh senang banyak. Ye la, dia dh leh msakan sendiri, mandi sendiri, berak sendiri, pakai baju sendiri, so memang banyak la rehat aku. Sekarang ni kene start over balik. Huhu, cepat la besar yer humaira..

12/5 adalah wedding anniversary, tapi tak celebrate sebab ape ntah. Then 6/6 besday aku, tak celeb gak sebab masa tu wat kenduri aqiqah humaira & haikal + wedding adik ipar aku. Frust gak. Balik dari kampung hari isnin, hari selassa tu cuti lepak kat unah. Memula ingat nak kuat celeb besday yang tertangguh, tapi badan adalah penat giler. So juz lepak kat umah tido je. Frust lagi.

Hari rabu cuti lagi. Sekali mr hubby bawak gi digi dan belikan aku handphone. BB!! Hepiiii!! Oh, suke banget sebab dapat fb, ym segala anytime. thanx yer bee. Lap u laaa. Tp bulan ogos ni harus aku kene balas hadiah best jugak untuk besday dia. Huhuhu. Ntah apa nak bagi ntah. Takpe, itu ade masa lagi, skang aku tengah hepiii!! :)

K la, sebenarnya ada story lagi, tapi udah ngantuk banget.. Nanti la sambung. Daaaa...

Dah nak stat??

Nak stat apa?? Stat keje laaa... Isnin ni dah stat.. huhuhu.. Kalau cuti tu rasa kejap je kene keje balik, cube kalau keje, nak tunggu habis 1 hari pun kengkadang rasa lambat..

Neway, Humaira dah selamat balik kat umah aku, & alhamdulillah so far dia ok.. Malam pun tade meragam hape.. Tido dengan lena dan aman.. Bangun untuk menyusu sekali aje.. Bagus, baguss.. Teruskan anakku.. Buleh ibu pun tido dengan lena dan tenang jugak..

Ok la, tade pape nak update pun, juz nak gitau minggu depan dah stat keje.. Oh, & ada interview sekali.. InsyaAllah, kalau ada rezeki baby, dapat la.. Tak dapat pun tak frust sangat, tapi tak salah cube kan? Wish me luck k...

Tak habis-habis lagi?!!

Ye, memang tak habis2 lagi isu kontraktor nih.. Sebabnye, ada lagi keje yang belum selesai.. Hari tu janji nak datang buat awning depan dan belakang, tapi bile kol kata tak jadi datang.. Bungukss laa.. Have to say, hati sangat panass.. Bile tengok je rumah mesti rasa berasappp je.. Hangenn lerr.. My hubby pun hangin, dan dia bertambah-tambah hangin bile tengok aku hangin..

So, 1 nite tu, my hubby kol orang yang bijak pandai yang telah merekemenkan mangkuk hayun nih.. Story la pe masalah sume, soh dia cakap ngan kawan dia tu, buat la elok2 sket.. Tapi si tolol nih pun satu gak, buleh plak dia defend mangkuk hayun tu, kata dia banyak keje la, ada masalah umah tangga laa.. Hotak kauuu.. Aku pedulik hape ko ada masalah rumah tangga ke, bini ko nak main kayu tiga ke, tade kene mengena ngan umah aku.. Pastu buleh plak dia nak nasihatkan orang.. Apa la punye manusia nih..? Dah cakap2 rupe-rupenye tolol nih ada la hutang budi kot kat mangkuk nih, sebab bebila ada kerosakan kat umah dia, dia panggil mangkuk nih betulkan - F.O.C.. So, kunun nak balas budi, dia rekemen mangkuk nih kat sape2.. Double bunguksss..! Ko rekemen semata-mata tu je?

Dah la mangkuk tu bile kol je taknak angkat.. Berani mesej je.. Bila ajak jumpe one by one, tak berani.. Nak kene si tolol tu teman.. Apa, ingat aku takut kat si tolol tu? Memang jantan tak bertelur betul la dowang nih! Takpe, satu hari nanti memang aku akan jumpe gak mangkuk hayun tu, siap la dia aku sembur.. Baik la dia berdoa banyak2 sebab harus makan dalam punyer bile aku sembur dia nanti..

Dan si tolol tu pun, haihhh.. Cukup2 la, aku pun tanak tengok muke ko lagi lepas nih..

* Tolol = orang yang merekemen
* Mangkuk/mangkuk hayun = kontraktor

All these while, ko la tali barutnya!

Have to say, since Humaira's birth, memang banyak perkara yang happened dalam life aku.. Takde la semuanya buruk, but then banyak perkara nih yang telah membuka minda & mata aku pada sesetengah orang.. Orang2 yang just pandai bercakap, pandai nasihat orang, tapi application kat diri sendiri adalah FAIL..

Memang ramai orang cenggini.. Especially kalau cakap pasal agama.. Ohh, dia la yang pandai banget, orang sume salah, orang sume tak betul, orang sume shallow.. Dia la yang hidup ikut landasan agama, tapi hari2 dok ngata orang, dok sakitkan hati orang.. Haih, payah nak cakap..

Senang cakap, semua bende happened within my own family.. Memang before this dah notice, but i just being ignorant, sebab family kan? But now macam dah takleh nak cover.. Rasa sangat over diowang tu.. Details? Takyah la, it's for me to know, and not for you to find out.. Standard la, there are ups and downs in the family.. So, this is one of the down time for my family..

Well, benda yang happened adalah berkait-kait dan ada sorang mangkuk nih a.k.a my cousin sebelah father selama ni adalah tali barut/talam/informer to someone close to me.. Last nite, my hubby called him to ask him the truth, and he told the truth.. All these while, memang dia jadi informer to that person.. And I wonder if he tells the truth all the time.. Feel so cheated.. Coz we are close.. How could he?

After I've known the truth, I straight away deleted him from my FB.. Tanak dia tau all my activities, nanti dia report lagi ntah.. Apa pun, I won't trust him ever again.. And maybe, I won't even contact him ever again.. Cukup la.. Orang macam nih memang layak dok kat tong sampah je.. Benciiiii!!!

U Suckssss!!!!

Bengang + hangeeennnnn je ngan kontraktor yang buat umah nih.. Udah la lembab, pastu buat keje cincai boncai je.. Patut dah lama siap, tapi sampai skang nih still in progress.. Tu pun bukan sebab apa, sebab aku n hubby tak puas hati dengan keje2 dowang nih.. Then we called the contractor to buat balik apa yang patut, sampai kitowang puas hati..

Ni la rupenye kalau bagi keje kat kontraktor MELAYU.. Bukan nak kutuk kaum sendiri, tapi haihhhhh.. Malas cakap la.. Bile dah bagi peluang, dowang buat taik lak.. Orang yang merecommendkan kontraktor nih pun leh buat bodo je.. Dah ko recommend, ko buat kering.. Tau amik komisyen je kot? Memang cibai..!

Sekarang, amikk kauuuu.. Ko datang la sampai hujung tahun sekali pun, selagi aku tak puas hati, ko buat la umah nih.. Kontraktor tu siap cakap, kalau buat balik habis la kos dia kene kuar.. WTF laa.. Kalau ko buat keje elok2 dari awal, takyah la ko buat keje 2,3 kali kan? Ko nak kire kos? Barang2 kat umah aku nih pun banyak yang damage sebab budak ko buat keje cam takde mata, ko nak ganti? Jangan bagi aku sembur ko, kang tak pasal ko takleh carik makan pasnih..

Memang hangen satu badan nih.. Tobat pasnih kalau nak reno pape kat umah, no more Malay contractor.. Baik amik chinese, even though mahal sket, but then selalunye puas hati.. BTW, contractor nih pun, bukan murah jugak.. Quite expensive gak price dia.. Cuba la buat taik, aku tak halal satu sen pun duit aku kangggg, tak senang je hidup ko.. Gerammmm...!!!!

Finally.. It's a girl!!!

Yup, on 11 March 2010 @ 12.27pm, I have given birth to a beautiful baby girl, Syafiqah Humaira bt. Shah Rolnizam.. Alhamdulillah, it was an eazy breezy delivery.. I was in pain less than half hour, and there comes my beautiful princess into the world..

Actually, I felt weird even when I was still at home.. I felt a bit pain in my tummy, felt like nak terberak.. Hehe.. I did go to the toilet, but then tak membuang plak.. So, I juz decided to go to work..

Sampai ofis, still bleh bergelak ketawa ngan colleagues, siap makan mi bandung for breakfast.. Then, I finished off my work, buat filing sume kasik complete so it will be easier for the person yang akan tanggung keje aku while I'm on leave nanti go through the files.. Dah siap2 bagi amanat sume kat member.. Masa breakfast tu pun sebenarnya rasa perut sakit, and siap pergi toilet sume.. But then, around 11 am rasa sakit lagi, tp still confuse adakah ini contraction? Huhuhu.. Serius, lupe camne rasa contraction.. Tapi around 11.10 am rasa sakit lagi.. Sudah rasa tak sedap hati, I called hubby and told him that I think I'm going to deliver.. He asked me to go to hospital immediately, and he will come soon..

So I told my colleagues that I'm going to the hospital - that was about 11.30.. I drove to the hospital by myself.. I was in pain jugak masa drive tu, but thankfully, boleh bertahan.. Sampai je hospital, terus park kat depan2 wad bersalin tu, siap cakap kat Guard, "saya dah sakit perut, nanti husband saya alih kereta".. Guard tu terus cakap, "masuk dalam cepat.." Tau gabra dia.. Hehe..

Masuk dalam, straight away bagitau nurse perut dah sakit.. Dia soh amik air kencing, then masuk dalam satu bilik dia nak check baby's heartbeat and contraction.. This was about 12.00 pm.. Sempat la nurse pelatih tu interview jap, then staff nurse kat situ check bukaan, dah bukak 7cm! Huh!! Terus diowang amik wheelchair, since aku pun dah start cakap dah sakit sangat, then tolak aku masuk labour room.. Rasanya dokdlm labour room tu pun jap je, sempat la tukar baju, then terus aku push 2x and akhirnya keluar la puteri aku ke dunia nih @ 12.27 pm.. Alhamdulillah sangat.. Bersalin kali nih sangat senang dan lancar.. Doc showed me the baby n took her away.. And after that, macam biasa, aku diberi minum and then, jahit apa yang patut, then rilex..

Hubby arrived around 1+ pm, masa tu tengah susukan baby.. He cried, cause he thought he wanted to be with me while I deliver, tapi tak sempat.. Takpe la, janji dah selamat delivered.. Hubby azan dan qamatkan baby, and keluar..

I stayed 1 nite in the hospital, and was discharged the next day.. Alhamdulillah again, my daughter is healthy, takde kuning sume..

So, that was the story of my delivery.. I'm so thankful that Allah fulfilled my wish - to have a daughter.. Since now I have a pair of children - 1 son and 1 daughter, I think I can rest for a long while after this.. :)

To all friends that gave me all the best wishes, thanx a lot..

New Office

At last, after delaying for I dunno how many times, finally we're in our new office.. Kalau ikutkan, we should move by January, but due to some problems, we need to delay our move..

However, now that everything's settled, we finally moved last week, on Thursday and Friday (angkut barang).. Sangat letih, walaupun kitorang takde la angkat pape pun, since we use movers.. But our new office is on 1st floor and NO LIFT okkk.. Kene naik tangga.. Dah la seblom naik tangga kene naik bukit.. Wahhh.. Harus pasnih perasan leh kurus after give birth.. Exercise la kunun naik tangga hari-hari.. :)

BUT, we move here dalam keadaan agak daif.. Certain furniture memang dah sampai, like a very basic needs - desks, chairs.. But lain-lain blom sampai lagikk.. Maybe this Thursday baru sampai (esok ler tu).. Oh, tak sabar nak tunggu lori IKEA sampai.. Yeay!! Haa.. mana ada lagi ofis gomen pakai furniture IKEA.. Even, swasta pun blom tentu dapat.. So, memang semangat nak keje nih.. Hehe.. Ye la, barang umah nak merasa IKEA memang nehi, nehi laa.. Banyak duit aku..?

Anyway, dah naik turun tangga, dah panjat bukit segala, my baby still comfortable in the womb.. Blom ada tanda-tanda nak kuar lagi.. Cepat la kuar sayang oii.. Ibu dah letih dah bawak perut nih haaa.. But then, fikir lak, if sakit nak bersalin kat ofis nih, mampus gue nak turun tangga.. Adoi laa.. Sape nak bawak gi spital.. Ada ke orang nak dukung aku? Hahaha.. Oh, hopefully sakit masa hari cuti.. So baby, stay in there at least until Friday evening k.. :D

Counting Days..

I'm now 38 weeks pregnant.. Kalau ikutkan, pregnancy period is about 40 weeks.. So, there's another 2 weeks before my delivery.. But then, by this time, I can deliver at any time if tanda2 bersalin dah ada.. Huhuhu.. Nervous laaa.. Hopefully everything will go on smoothly.. Hopefully my hubby can make it to be with me during my labour.. Risau gak, since my hubby now works in Sepang.. Jauh ooooo...

There's a lot in my mind.. Can I drive to hospital by myself if Mr. Hubby not around? How about Haikal? Huhhh.. Hopefully aku bersalin time cuti, at least Mr. Hubby will be around..

'GOTCHA!!'

Nope, i'm not being gotcha.. But I love to listen to Gotcha Calls on Hitz.fm every morning on my way to work.. And this morning, I thought the call was quite interesting..

It was the son who actually set up his mother for a gotcha call.. So the Hitz crew called the mother, saying that she's her son's girlfriend.. She told the mother that her son has actually promised to marry her and already gave her a ring but took it back.. And now, her son is avoiding her and not answering her phone calls and so on.. She even said she's coming from France and now dunno what to do since she has nobody here in Malaysia..

The mother, even quite shocked, sounded soooo calm and relax.. She even ask the girl's address so that they can meet up.. But the girl's reluctant, saying that she just want to find his son.. Can't recall how the call was actually ended but when she was told that she was being gotcha, she just laugh.. Haha.. What a sporting mother!

I wish I will be a sporting and supporting mother to my children.. I want my children to make me their friend, tell me their joy, sadness, worries, and at the same time respect me as a mother too.. I even practice with Haikal now.. Everytime I pick him up from Taska, I'll ask him what's happening today, what did he do.. And he will tell stories, even sometimes tak paham kejadah pun pe yang dia cakap..! Hahaha.. But still I listen with full interest and responded to what he has to say..

Will I be a good mother? Am I being a good mother? I will be!! :)

It's Been Quite Some Times..

It's been quite some times since my last entry.. Not that I don't have any story to share, but been too tired to write.. Am 9 and a half months pregnant now, and doc said if 'tanda2 bersalin' is there, straight away go to the hospital!! Huhuhu.. Even though this is my 2nd child, still am quite nervous and scared to face my delivery moment.. Hopefully, this one will be as smooth as Haikal's.. :)

Well, February is coming toward its end, and am glad to say, lotsa good things happened.. Alhamdulillah.. For those who don't know, I've moved to Kajang already.. Yes, bought a house here and the timing is just right.. My hubby was transferred to Sepang, and since we stayed in quarters last time, we have to move out.. Thankfully, by that time, everything is settled - we got the money, we got the house key.. I might say, everything goes on quite smoothly.. For those whose asking "bile nak buat house warming?" Wait laa.. After confinement maybe? Hehe.. Don't worry, memang ada plan nak buat, tapi since tengah sarat nih, tunggu la dulu yer...

Second - since I work in government sector, our pangkat is based on grade.. And this year, CUEPACS managed to upgrade all secretary's grade which lead to salary increase as well! Yeay!! Alahhh.. tapi setakat gaji gomen, bukanla banyak mana sangat pun.. But, boleh laaa.. Rezeki baby.. *Wink*

Third - Have found a contractor to do some renovation to our 'old' house.. Yup, we bought an old house je.. Padan la dengan harga and kelayakan kitorang ni.. But at least, it's our own house kan? And it's not a renovation besar-besaran pun, juz need to have the wall painted, change the whole wiring system, kitchen cabinet and other small-small things.. Jadilaa.. Buat yang basic dulu.. Plan to start once I delivered and start my confinement.. InsyaAllah, by the time my confinement ends, the house is ready.. :)

Fourth - Nak pindah ofis next week.. Bigger space, and I got my own room.. :) Walaupun sebenarnya, lagi suke dok kat luar ngan kengkawan, lagi kecoh! But then, having my own room pun is a good thing.. At least, i'll have my privacy.. And also, all our furniture will be from IKEA.. hahaha.. stylo la sket.. takde la orang kata typical government office.. Can't wait to see my new office! Excited!!

Fifth - Since we moved to Kajang, we've sent Haikal to taska instead of 'rumah orang'.. Alhamdulillah, memang nampak progress Haikal kat sini.. Now, he can recite doa makan and doa lepas makan along with the meaning.. Suke sangat dengar dia baca.. So cute..! And memang everytime we're having our meal, we'll ask him to recite the doa.. But with us only, coz last time we balik Gombak, asks him to recite the doa for atuk and nenek, tanak plak!! Malu kot.. Hehe.. And he looks happier now, maybe sebab dah ramai kawan..

Ermm.. so far that's all the good things yang happened.. Memang rezeki anak kali ni banyak sangat.. Syukur alhamdulillah.. So now, waiting for my delivery je la.. Hopefully selamat.. Doa-doakanla ye.. Will surely inform once i've delivered okehh..